Daemonic-Fae

not very hard. ended up getting hospitalized for a crohn's flare up though. they told me i have brain damage and now want to keep giving me seizure meds. like my friend. i do not have seizures and that wasn't from the accident. i've had so many concussions, etc., that i've begged for a brain scan before with 0 luck because nothing happened. i am now going to get a referral to a neurologist. thank you whoever grazed me into the side of the road because now i am getting a problem i've been begging for help for for actual years taken seriously!

it wasn't their fault they did try to dodge me and i was riding in the middle of the night in low-vis clothes. ;u; -Alexxx

not sure how that's possible but he's right and there's like actual criteria; he's never mistaken anyone else in his dreams for being Our brother >Raz

I know I'm not the only person who has reoccuring "characters" in their dreams. One I've dreamed about their entire life up to a certain point... His name is Victor. He was raised on a farm but one day his mom died and he called 911. So the cops and an ambulance came in the same helicopter. The cops blame his dad because he's black (Victor did see him attack her but the cops in the dream only thought that because he was black, there wasn't any investigation) so they shot him and Victor is left alone on the farm. He decides to leave it because no one bothered to move the bodies and now the entire farm reminds him of that. So he wanders for days before finding a city occupied (as far as I could tell) entirely by dogs. So he lives in a house with like a dozen dogs and the dream ends like a decade into that.

So Victor shows up in another dream I have actual months later. He's the age he is at the end of the last dream, I'm guessing 22 or so. I'm also in this dream (I didn't appear in the last one) and its one of the ones where I look like Alex and don't realize its a dream. I also live on a cow farm, like I do in a lot of dreams for no discernible reason. Victor came from a farm that was entirely crops so even with the farmer thing in common the cows were new to him. Anyways in that dream Victor told me his brother ran these like mad scientist experiments on his entire family.

Now, mad scientist is considered a valid occupation in my dream world. At least I think so, considering I've had a few where I was experimented on and running away caused the government to intervene. In a couple it was the government doing it. One of them involved cows that produced tainted milk that the government was trying to get some substance that they produced into the water. It was neon green milk and they made me subsist on nothing but milkshakes, not allowing me to eat anything else but not explicitly forcing me to drink that stuff. After like 3 days in-dream I drank one of the shakes and started turning slowly into a cow while screaming "NOOOOO" while Matt Bennett (who was the scientist in this dream) laughed this like insane evil laugh. The entire dream felt horrifying but I literally can't even begin telling that story without laughing.

Anyways so back to Victor's story. He introduced me to one of his sisters that had these mechanical bugs crawling over and under her eyes and face and asked me if I'd hide her. I said no because the bugs freaked me out and weren't removable without tools and skills I didn't have. I am not a hero, and tell him as much. He understands. He later grows insanely jealous of the bond I have with my cows, much to my confusion, and goes back to his brother begging to be let into what remains of his family (the bro was the head of the family because the experiments made them superhumans even tho there were obvious drawbacks and it at least LOOKED painful). So the brother makes these evil clones of Victor and all of them raid my farm looking for me and I woke up right after a few of them had me cornered so IDK how the fight went down.

There's also an abandoned mall that also has an abandoned walmart in part of it. Not all of the lights work and the entire place feels like you're being watched when no one else is there. Raz (one of us) lives in the abandoned mall and dresses pretty much like I'd assume someone who lived in a place like that would. I've never actually seen any part with clothes on it but I have seen that there's a freezer in the food court that's always fully stocked with ice cream even though almost no one is ever there. I didn't accept haunted mall ice cream because the entire area felt off and also Raz's tongue was abnormally long and I didn't want him to try and lick ice cream I had because he's someone who would do that, I'm telling you!

Another recurring place is this thrift shop where every time you read or say the name it's different, but somehow everyone knows what it's called every time no matter what its referred to as. I got banned from there for trying to steal a blanket. I tried explaining that it was a dream and long story short I'm still banned forever.

Every doctor in my dreams pretty much is this one psychiatrist I had when I was like 12 and he's not a good doctor much like his real life counterpart. One time I was gently scratching my arm after getting attacked by fireworks and like the skin and all this pus came out and I didn't have bones so my mom called the doctor and he said there wasn't anything wrong with it and I was overreacting. So I decided to go chill in the hot tub with one of my friends and it fixed my arm because of the power of friendship (like, that was the reason not the hot tub).

In another dream he was actually a psych doctor and he planned to launch the entire hospital (no other patients but 1 other doctor) to the moon so I couldn't escape. I found a door out that was open and jumped and suddenly my best friend was there asking me "Did you forget how to fly?" like bitch yeah who fucking knows they can fly? Didn't know it was a dream until I woke up and had to spend like an hour telling myself none of that actually happened, this was worse than the dream where I had four extra arms and had to cut all of them off with a katana.

Not a place but I see my grandmas in my dreams a lot, all of them. My mom's mom has a motorcycle in almost every dream I see her in even though she never had one irl that I know of. Dream Grandma made a decision and the decision was to be cooler.

If anyone wants to tell me about their dreams, I find dreams awesome and fun to talk about. ~Syn

If you ask people what their favorite color is in general, most people answer blue. But when I've asked that question to the other patients during a 72 hour hold most of them answered with Purple. I don't know what to do with this information, but I have it and I think it's neat.

You're waiting outside your girlfriend's classes again. I walk up to you and wave.

"What do you want?"

I shrug, and walk closer. You don't take your eyes off me.

"I'm waiting for someone. What is it with you?"

I move my hands over my mouth and throat, make the "chatter" symbol with one of my hands, then make an "X" with both of them.

You understand. You complain about everything in your entire life for several hours, until I meet who you spent a good hour of it talking about. I immediately shake her hand, and you explain that I can't talk but I "seem nice".

SEVERAL MONTHS LATER

We're hiding from everyone hunting us down. They Know. You are yelling directions at everyone around, making things grow where they Shouldn't. There's panic, fire. Before running out, I tell you,

"I'll make sure they burn in their own fires." I wink at you and immediately begin fucking everything up with my weird tentacle powers.

You seem confused, yelling, "I THOUGHT YOU COULDN'T TALK." I yell back at you, "I NEVER SAID THAT!"

SEVERAL HOURS LATER

We are away from this. You seem more confused than upset. I tell you, "I'm more of a listener."

(Note: earlier you told me one of your favorite things about me is this, lol,)